My whole entire life was always about depending on others for my happiness. Every time I depended on someone, I got hurt. I never knew why no one wanted to be my friend. I never knew why they always left. I lost faith and my ability to trust in people. I questioned every possible answer but never had confirmation….

When I found God, I realized He’s been trying to answer what I have been asking all along. I was just too foolish and blind to see it. He was trying to tell me to stop depending on people and to depend on Him. He should be the ONLY one to cast all my worries and anxiety on. He knows everything about me. He let all those people to hurt me so maybe I would wake up and see the truth. The same thing kept on happening because I never learned. I was so oblivious to what was going on. I mean, every single case was so similar! There was no way it was only a coincidence. And it wasn’t. It was the work of God. I finally realized what he was trying to teach me.

I never believed in Him because I couldn’t see Him. I realized that you don’t need to see Him to believe in Him. Sight is only temporary. You might wake up blind tomorrow…. If that happens then does that mean you’ll stop believing that the sky is blue? There is more to life than just seeing something to believe in it. Having faith and trust in Him is all you need. Even if you are blind, you will still be able to see in the eyes of God. He will lead you to the right path. He is never wrong.

There are so many things in my life that testified in the existence of God. Now that I realized this, I can start living my life right. I’m not perfect and I will mess up but I know he will be there guiding me in every step on the way.

This is my new year’s verse that I’ve chosen to keep for the whole year. I have to build more of my faith in God. I have to trust him completely. Once I trust Him completely, then no one can hurt me because I have him on my side.

Sorry this was a little unsorted. It’s 1 AM!